The Most Beautiful World In the World

Could it be this long since I've decided I've had nothing to say?

Nothing wrong with that.  Often I feel people have way too much to say, when they really have nothing to say at all.  I'm happy to be here, dropping seeds that nobody needs.  There's a freedom in writing to no one but yourself.

Freedom - so elusive.  So false.  So coated with b.s.  Thinking you are free isn't freedom.  Thinking is stinking, to quote an ascended master friend of mine.

I Googled myself.  Don't do it.  Except that it brought me to my own blog that I'd forgotten about.  I think I was a little ashamed of it, for whatever reason - trying to still be a normal person in the normal world, drinking the Kool-Aid of normality.  Then for whatever drunken reason I Googled my own name and found my own wisdom, sitting here quietly, undiscovered, seemingly unremarkable.

And I like it.  I like what I've read.  I like me.  That's not something that has been very easy to say and really mean it without any makyo*.

(*Makyo is a word that describes all the light-weight spiritual drivel and fluffy unsubstantial pablum that people use to pass for true mastery.  You know, it started with "Have a Nice Day!!"  I'll have just the kind of day I feel like thank you very much.  It continues with the proliferation of co-opting deep spiritual disciplines into groovy gluten free sound and video bites - "Namaste y'all!")

Could be why I've not posted a blog post for years.  I came to the realization recently that this world is not mine.  So why would I want to say to the world "Hey, I don't care anymore!"?  As a devotee of Gaia, and as a lover of nature as the only thing worth worshiping besides myself, to give up on Mother Nature is anathema to all that I've ever thought about myself.

And yet, when I finally accepted a total release of responsibility for this world - indeed, when I truly stopped caring - I suddenly felt a freedom like I'd never experienced before.  It's not what you think.  I didn't begin acting in ways that were destructive.  I didn't hate.  I just gave up my sense of responsibility and my deep connection to my beloved - this awesome planet Earth.  The part of me that hurt deeply and continuously by the ignorance that would destroy all that makes this place worth living.

I finally realized that it's not mine.  Gaia, the energy spirit of Earth, is Her own sacred and sovereign being.  And just like I wouldn't dream of meddling in the experiences chosen by any of my human brethren, I suddenly was able to correlate that to my most beloved - the last thing that has kept me here - filled with (so called) caring and worry and despair for Gaia.  I walked into work and said to a knowing friend, "This isn't my world anymore.".  I didn't even know what I meant fully at the time.  It felt like I'd given up to despair and I wondered how much of a downer was I??  Though I knew that wasn't it at all.

The wisdom later came to me that I had simply released Gaia from the tyranny of my expectations.  And Freedom followed.  My connection with Gaia is more sensual and honest then ever before. 

I love Gaia as much as ever.  Without the pain now.  Without it depending on my fellow human, politicians, manufacturers, big car drivers, polluters, destroyers behaving disrespectfully towards Her.  Go ahead.  I'm releasing it being my responsibility to correct these evils.  Gaia is just fine.  As for those living here unconsciously, well....

Taking care of Isness.
Master Blaster Aster (knickname from a co-worker)

The Most Beautiful World In The World
Harry Nilsson (oh how I miss this thoroughly odd and delightful fellow - and best neighbourhood friend Kurt Zanzerl who first played this song for me.) 
I love the way you wear your trees.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wm9wrglpOn

Taking care of isness.

Hi Universe,

It's been a while.  Finally inspired.  Finally.  So I'm stepping forward into my inspiration.

Things have been energetically ROCKY - haven't they?  Truly, I wonder how the Muggles are coping?  Or it is just the sensitive ones feeling it all the big energy going on, up, over, through everything?

I decided to pull some tools out, since in this crazy time I've had some heartache, experienced a loss of interest and engagement with my work, felt less than totally wonderful about myself, have some physical this and that, and doubted my connection to spirit.  Yeah, just a normal day in ascension....

However I'm also exercising more than I have in the last few years and I'm loving the results - I think this is what is keeping me in balance.

So, tools....I decided to focus on the chakra energy centres in my body.  As Shaumbra, we don't normally go around spinning our chakras this way and that.  We instead understand that the chakras can be gently opened with some lovely meditative music, some simple words of guidance, and the intention of the divine one (that'd be you) uttering the choice for that to take place - and so it is, and you go about your day in ascension.

However I also understand we are in "dense" physical form (which isn't really dense at all, right?  Just a bunch of invisible atoms, football fields apart, all that stuff.) and being human we get things stuck in our being, in our energies.  And that's the way I've been feeling.  Like I'm not fully able to let go of a bad deal and move forward.

Could be just another shedding of another layer.

So I picked to work with my chakras because:
It's simple.
I've studied it before.
A lot.
It brought amazing things into my life.
It's colourful.
It's vocal.
It's meditative.
It's a way of working with yourself intuitively.
It's gentle.

Years ago I studied this vast Chakra healing course by Anodea Judith - came in a library of cassettes (how quaint now, eh?) - and of course throughout my journey, working with the Chakra system is the focus of so much learning and exploring.  I don't recall ever having a healing crisis by gently working with the chakras, but did experience those amazing 'new age' experiences that we used to long for and expect - money, relationships, blessings all coming out of the clear blue sky.

So I'm inspired to write about this and document this exploration.  I will journal here on my New Energy experiences with the chakras...

First thing is I'm going to listen to the "Seven Seals" from the Crimson Circle material.

See ya!

Owl Be There

11:11 pm

Taking a look at my previous posts I realized I never did share my most recent Owl story.  It's not so much a story I suppose as an episode in my book of lovely Owl experiences.

This one, like the others, was very simple.  Over way too quickly but leaving a lasting impression.

A few months ago I stepped out on my deck in the middle of the night.  I live in a "City in the Country" as the city's motto goes, but currently live in a part that's more city than country.  However I happily enjoy a totally private deck with a little forested strip that runs between my place and a light industrial area.  I see the usual forest animals back here, with eagles, hawks, hummingbirds, heron, coyote, rabbit, and deer often making an appearance.  I love it.

I was up as usual in the middle of the night, unable to sleep (in ascension, one's changing patterns can be difficult to negotiate with the rest of the world’s schedule!), and feeling hot and stuffy, I stepped out on the deck leaning out on the cool railing, my hands, forearms and head sticking out.  I was just taking a nice deep breath while surveying the forest to my right when suddenly I saw a movement, dark and silent and very close, out  of the corner of my left eye. 

I turned, startled and unsure what presence was suddenly inches away from me.  I pulled back as I turned, and saw a great horned owl soaring by my chest, and I took in a sharp intake of breath in shock and surprise.  I watched as it flew to my right, skimming along the side of the building, soaring soundlessly and effortlessly through the darkness, down into the trees and disappearing from sight. 

I stood there with my eyes wide open a long time, barely breathing, and the echo of my gasp still hanging in the air.  The stillness of the night combined with the suddenness of the encounter created a moment where time stopped and one finds oneself in a heightened awareness; in the peak of an experience.

What is kind of cool is this is not the first experience of this type I’ve had with this Owl while outside on my deck.  This past spring and summer I observed his maturing as he learned to fly and hunt with his parent.  They would hoot to each other all night and hunt from a particular tree.  So on another night I had stepped out onto the deck with my camera to film the moon.  As I leaned over the deck I saw something out of the corner of my eye and this time saw the Owl coming at me along side the building.  I tried to swoop around with my video to capture him, but all I got was a very blurry video and my reaction to the Owl flying by so close.

What I suspect is the Owl sees the motion of my hand over the railing and sensing a potential prey, swoops in for a look.  A silent and deadly hunter, I suspect if I was his quarry, I wouldn’t stand a chance!


Owl be seeing you!
Jaynne

All Energy Serves The Master

9:15 pm

Oh yes I feel it.  The sad energies, the bad energies.  I hear the put down voices, the tape loops of negative self statements.  I hear the fear demons screaming in my ears predicting doom around every corner and action.  I feel the anxiety in my stomach and the strange aches and pains in my body.

I’m glad I’m conscious of these energies because I enjoy asking myself, “Do I choose this energy?  Does this thought really belong to me?” 

Because then I can say with a smile, “No, it does not.”

Does your mind respond with some ridiculous protest like, “But what if it IS yours??”  Oh the mind loves to fix things!  Your mind will calm down when you let it know there is nothing wrong.   Nothing to fix.

Even if you insist a negative thought or feeling must be yours, then what would happen if you just tried saying, “This is not mine – I don’t care if I have chosen this for eons of lifetimes before.  I ‘unchose’ it right now and I allow this energy to truly serve me in a new way.” 

No you are not being irresponsible.  You are not being insincere.  You are being God Also!

Why would I ask you to do such a crazy thing, talking to yourself like that – choosing this energy or that as ‘yours’ and ‘not yours’?  Because you can!  And when you do such crazy things as this, you are becoming a master of life.  Your life.

I can smile as I feel the attempts to feed me discouraging, negative energy that doesn’t serve me and tries to trip me up – it’s becoming so easy now to simply acknowledge it and then step aside to allow my divinity to transmute it into energy that serves me and others in magical ways.  I take a deep breath and simply dispel the message and alchemise the energy.  I choose for it to serve me, and so it is.  It’s so fun to allow those nasty barbs to zoom right past, to be magically dissolved into energy that acknowledges what I acknowledge:

I Am That I Am.

L8r, cr8r!

Jaynne

Changel

Changel:  An Asterism* referring to any vehicle of energetic or spiritual adjustment.  For instance, a long walk in the woods is one of my changels.

*Asterism: A name given by my friends to the particular way I look at things and the names I give things.

8:08 p.m.  It’s so great to have music to get you through the day; to celebrate, to move some energy, to express or release emotion.  Singing, humming, listening with appreciation, moving to the rhythms – anyone can enjoy this. 

I have some rhythm instruments around because I love to pick them up and just explore their sounds and the rhythms that want to come out - usually awkward, hicuppy beats until I open to allowing the energy to flow through me, then take on its own wave of motion and sound.  Sometimes I’ll try playing along with an Amir Ya'acoby cd (one of the best trance percussionist in Israel)….  I’d be humiliated if any human witnessed my bloodless slaying of the beat – however, in my imagination I’m flying like Amir and I’m so cool!  (He did show me how to play the clay pot, but I'm a rank beginner!)

Amir Ya'acoby - Hands a blur

MidSummer New Energy Conference 2009

When I was going through the roughest first waves of the awakening journey, I spent a lot of time in the mountains, and forests and walking trails in southwest B.C.  There I would vent, to the pure clean energy of the old forests, all that had built up inside me. 

I would scream and cry and yell, and stomp the earth until I was hoarse and exhausted.  I remember it felt so good to go home and sleep after those episodes.  It may sound extreme and dramatic, but before going crazy and doing something to harm yourself or another, before taking a pill to suppress whatever is erupting inside you, before diving head first into the drama saying or doing something you’ll regret, go throw some rocks into the river and scream!  Mother Nature understands. 

I would ask my surroundings to support me in my release, and bless the nature spirits afterwards.  I had a lot of layers to peel off and anger to release in those days.

Working with Hannibal Means in Kelowna was an absolute treat.  You may know Hannibal if you watched "America’s Got Talent" this past year.  He made it to the semi-finals, which was to air right after our Kelowna Mystery School event.  Hannibal is an amazing teacher.  It’s fascinating to watch how quickly he can coach someone from ‘non singer’ to belting out a song full voice.  The energy and power that people experience is written all over their face. 

Hannibal Means business - Kelowna Mystery School 2010

What you may not know is that he traces the beginning of his amazing journey to his experiences of the Sexual Energies School taught by Shaumbra teachers around the world (and here in B.C. too!).  He has said after taking the school he decided to just say "YES!" to life!  And he ends up on "The Tonight Show".  He is one-of-a-kind and fun to imitate – he’s so outrageous it makes it so easy for you to go for it too – free your voice! 

We were doing this energy exercise and I can still hear his booming voice deeply intoning, “I COOMMMAND YOU TO SEEEERRRRVE MEEE!” to a glass of water, while we all did the same, trying to match his ability and fill the room with our voice.  Ok, and then there are his crocheted animal hats - suffice to say we laughed a lot!   I'll have to borrow some pictures from Joep and post them here.

Truly, the use of the voice and releasing energy through the voice was one of the most important aspects of the school for me. 

Commanding water to serve you.  Hey, why not?

So this brings me to my muse about the voice and using it to create change in your life.  Everyone’s voice is unique and I imagine it’s unique in the universe – that the angels know your voice.          
                                                                    

Performing at Mid-Summer New Energy Conference 2009

Breckenridge, CO

So whether you are using it to command energy to serve you, or you are singing at the top of your lungs, or you are screaming gibberish to release energy – the voice is a fantastic tool for change in the new energy.

Let it be one of your Changels.

Love Master Aster

FOR MUSIC: by Amir Ya'acoby or to hear samples, see the CDs "I Am That I Am" and "Quantum Leap"
FOR SCHOOL: Click Here To See A Video About the Sexual Energies School
FOR HANNIBAL MEANS: Just Google him!

Egypt - Chemia - Alchemy

10:07 p.m. The other non-purpose of this blog (I am consciously letting go of purpose this month!) is to have a place to explore the Egypt experience that I've gifted myself with; my upcoming Egypt trip with the Crimson Circle, Geoff and Linda, and fellow Shaumbra*. 

*The term "Shaumbra" was once mentioned by Tobias years ago, saying it was a name we used to collectively call ourselves in the early times.  The name was rapidly adopted and we use it to speak of anyone who resonates with the messages and materials of the CC (Crimson Circle).  If you identify as Shaumbra, you are part of a passionate group of teachers, who are exploring their own awakening and discovering their own sovereignty.

The trip to Egypt feels very big.  Very significant.  It's challenging me not to go into anxiety and fear over the bigness that I'm feeling.  It's challenging me not to go into mental details, energetically dashing about thinking I have little deadlines all over, and lots of preparation to do.  (In a way I do of course, but I can do it with ease instead of stress.) 

I have a new sign up at my desk that reads: "I Love Deadlines.  I Love The Sound They Make As They Go Whooshing By."

The bigness so far is undefined, but the consciousness clue is in the title of this post.  Egypt-Chemia-Alchemy.  Chemia is an old name of Egypt, and is the origin of the word Alchemy.  There is so much imaginative musing to be had there!

And so I am leaving off the somewhat mental exercise of 'blogging', so to ease into the rest of my night with my homework there waiting for me to play with (Homeplay, not Homework); that is to release the old energy of having to have a purpose, and to transmute the energy that is swirling around and buffeting everyone on the planet (so it moves out of my sore feet....!).

Oh yes, there will be more on this later - I can feel it.

Tomorrow I will tell you about my most recent Owl experience.

MasterAster

The Nextest, Bestest Thing

8:48 p.m.  Had our monthly Crimson Circle Shoud today.  A "Shoud" is the collective energy of the group of folks who gather to tune into the messages of Tobias, Saint Germain, Kuthume as channeled through Geoff Hoppe, along with other angelic entities who love to come and speak to us. 

We've been doing this for a long time now - over 10 years I guess.  I understand we've got the longest running webcast in history...well now.  We've been through many Series.  The one we are in now is called The (Next) Series...yes, the parenthesis mean something.  Today the discussion was so helpful in answering a bunch of questions that certainly have been 'up' for me.

The aches and pains in the body, the creaky joints, and sluggish sore muscles - in short, what feels like the aging process - seems to be a constant complaining companion.  It seems gone are the days of feeling no pain and sleeping through the night.  Never one to be satisfied with that, I've been at work with the energies to see about a new energy approach to the situation.  It's tempting to go the complicated, expensive, medical care route - I've tried their remedies and they're brutal and I intuitively feel they aren't really working so I abandon their 'cures' eventually.

It was significant to me that Adamus (Saint-Germain) began speaking of focusing on our belly buttons, since that came up in some energy work I was doing with a client yesterday.  We focused on her belly button and the sensations she was feeling there.  It turns out she'd never really explored her belly button, nor had anyone else explore there either!  And it awakened a sensation in her that had a surprising impact on her consciousness.  She became aware of the energy there and the sensations that went through her body when it was activated.  (And if you've not explored you own belly button, I invite you to do so and discover the energy there!)

A lovely b.b.

(I don't recommend looking at images of belly buttons in a google search. I'm not the same.)

The great thing about the Shoud was the simple, straightforward answer to these questions of health and well being - There Is Nothing Wrong.  The truth is we are feeling pressure of outside influences bombarding our planet, and our minds are anxiously checking in with the body asking, "What's wrong? What's wrong?".  And the body responds like a old curmudgeon, "Oh let me tell you all about it!  Oh my aching feet!".  So the body gets into a conversation with the mind based on what is wrong - but it's a false conversation that creates a false energy.  While in actuality there is nothing wrong, we suddenly believe there must be, and therefore create that oh yes, something IS wrong!  And furthermore you can FEEL IT so it must be true! 

We need to interrupt this negative dialog and stop using our mind to define what we are feeling.  We need to get beyond the mind, because of its limited view of you as lowly, weak, vulnerable, etc.  We need to breath into these stuck energies that are creating problems in our body, and acknowledge "there is nothing wrong".

So this month I am going to be working on the stuck energies in my feet and neck and shoulders.  I am going to breath into those places and remind myself and those energies of my mind that "there is nothing wrong" and I am safe to allow those energies to flow through - it's only energy after all, and I can use it however I choose it!

Ah, life is so good when you are in the magic.......
MasterAster